It has been awhile since I have made a post. One of my goals for this year is to write more on my blog. I have never been a great writer but I have lots to say, things to talk about and share with you. I can only become better at things by actually doing them right, Right!! So here we go, I have always had a love/hate relationship with running, it is on all levels my biggest display of weakness (food is also my weakness but that is another post) I am all over the place, not relaxed, my breathing is out of control, my calves are on fire, its not pretty. I want to love running, I want to feel that high and experience those breakthroughs. This is the year I will run my first half marathon. I have been saying it for years and I am ready to go for it mentally but physically I am not there yet. I hope to run the Silver Falls half with my sister in law in November, it is a trail run and I have found out over the last year that I do like, actually love running trails. It would also bring me great joy to my little heart to run my first half marathon with someone that I have looked up to for so many years, Leslie inspires me everyday. I have not decided if I should do two half marathons this year or just train fully for the trail run but I think that is what I might do, we have lots of trails to train on here in Arizona. I have been filling my head with self sabotaging thoughts that I could never run a half marathon or accomplish many things for that matter. About a week before Christmas I decided to get back to it and take my life back, I started getting up at four in the morning to meet my friend and get an easy three miles in, most of that was walking but walking so FAST!!! I could barely keep up with the pace, then another friend joined back with us and she walks even FASTER!!!!! Now you might not think that walking can be challenging but let me tell you, Chasity and Stacy are super fast and we are also walking out in the desert with lots of ups and downs and on sandy dirt roads kinda like the beach but no water. I am always a few steps behind but this is good because it has been pushing me and making my legs stronger. I am really taking baby steps through this journey adding a few intervals at a time. I have done my share of doing things to fast to soon and then ended up with an injury or just gave up because things got too hard. So we have been at it every morning just at about 3 weeks now (they say a new habit is created in 21 days, phew I made it now let’s keep it going) and the past two mornings we have been picking up the pace meaning running more often and longer with our intervals, (I really need a running watch) both of my friends are experienced runners so I am very thankful for them because they push me to do better and really help me even though my pace is much slower and I cannot run as long, they always slow down for me and give me positive words of encouragement. Some runners may not be so helpful, I know that they could just leave me in the dust but they don’t (thank goodness its pitch black in the desert) and now that we are running more I am a few feet behind, but its totally fine I keep going and say OK so they know I need a break and even that break is challenging because its a power walk. I am so grateful for those two, and for my sister in law who taught me about the walk/run method. It’s hard getting up at four in the morning and out the door to go walk/run in 30-40 degree weather for an hour but it has become a goal that is non negotiable for me. Too many times I would have made an excuse, it’s too early, it’s too cold, I’m tired blah blah blah. That saying “choose the same way of thinking and you will get the same old results” is sooo true. I am working very hard on changing my thinking to more positive thoughts and talking to myself with more loving and kind words. I know that I can do anything and everything that I set my mind on, with a little Faith all things are possible. As soon as I saw the photo I am posting I fell in love with it because it brought me to a specific moment from this morning while we are out there running under the stars all I heard was silence and our feet hitting the dirt roads moving us closer to our goals it was like we were playing the road a little symphony, or telling a story that only the road could hear. The past couple of mornings when I am driving home I have felt this really calm and peaceful feeling, not tired just calm. Have a great Tuesday everyone….